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A necessary chapter

A necessary chapter

I still stare at your flowers. Those flowers you denied me of buying myself. It’s something I’m so accustomed of doing when treating myself is something I must do in the absence of someone as great as you. As great as you are and despite how it ended, the moments we shared will always be remembered.

They say everyone comes in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime; and you dear one may have only been for a reason but that very reason is not to be ignored, forgotten, or left un-honored. I was the woman that lost hope. The girl that lost belief. The girl who started to feel that the treatment she knew she deserved probably only existed in her head, but you came and proved her wrong.

30 Seconds. All it took was 30 seconds to realize you were different. Most dudes say they are but I knew immediately. A natural charisma that was constant and never an ounce or a note of disrespect came from you. To say you were a gentleman is an understatement and that is enough to put any woman at ease to simply enjoy her time in your presence without feeling pressured to find out what’s next.

I felt special, you made that happen. You woke up new thoughts and you believed in those thoughts. You showed concern for me as a whole and you listened without judgement. Even my deepest secrets were no match for your sympathetic heart. You learned me, you figured out what meant the most to me. You showed me that there are still Kings out there even if we have to swipe through hundreds of peasants to find you.

We learned from each other. There were things I learned about myself and new things you probably learned as well. These lessons are golden and I’ll be sure to carry them with me every day. I’ll practice my patience, I’ll be more understanding, and on the real…I’ll try not to be so damn critical.

I made you a promise, a promise I can’t say anyone else has encouraged me most in closing. That promise was to keep writing. No person I’ve ever talked to on this level ever encouraged me so much. No person has ever been so moved but made it known that they still wanted to hear good things whether they played an active role in my life or not before you and for that I thank you the most. I promise I won’t fail you.

It was great, but this was a necessary chapter that wasn’t meant to last forever. A chapter in my journey that I didn’t expect, a chapter I wasn’t ready to open, but a chapter that still had to end. I can’t guarantee if there may be a part II, but I can say that if there is...I can only hope that each edition is more magical than the last.

I could've had you

I could've had you

Day 13

Day 13

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