I'm not Superwoman
Stop assuming I'm Superwoman! I have weak days too. Today is one of them. Sometimes you don't realize you're hiding pain until it becomes too much to hold. You get so caught up with life, goals, and the grind that you forget your needs. This outer glow of perfection that must be maintained is unrealistic and we can't front to the public, even they shouldn't be deceived.
No one wants to talk about it. We even ignore that it's there. We choke up the thoughts and bury them in tasks and responsibilities. We keep ourselves so busy, running non-stop, sticking to the agenda, heads deep into our devices and pouring ourselves into our vices that we forget that our hearts are aching.
Today it's aching. Today my heart is aching for a feeling that didn't last long but for a while thought was never to come. It came but not from the right one. It's one thing to know what you want in life, know how you should be treated and think it's nothing more than a dream, and it's another thing to be shown that that dream can become a reality but never, never in the perfect scenario.
Tomorrow will be better, I just know it will. This feeling can't last forever. For I will continue to bury these thoughts, these feelings, and this heartache into my life, goals, and the grind while I deceive all of you by letting you continue to think that I am Superwoman...even though I know what my heart really needs.